juz got back from a mini celebration for a fren's 21st at city hall. happie bdae caijie! if u are reading, best wishes and all the best for yr 2009 and results next week. haha!

the feeling of emo is attacking me again. i realise it alwaes come during christmas. everi yr. nv fail. damn it.i hate it. shldnt xmas be a festive season, but why am i hafing this feeling everi yr... perhaps winter wif the cold streets has an impact. the feeling of seeing frens beside me getting attached, its definiteli stronger during xmas. for sum unknown reason. the feeling of frens leaving mi is unbearable. i wish i was stronger in life, i wish i was more independent.. but i noe im not. frens are everithin in my life. i noe i can nv survive alone.. i nid ppl ard me.. i nid attention. i nid everithin. i wan my friends to be near mi...

its absurd to grumble when i got so much meeting ups wif gd frens for xmas next week. almost everidae is booked. but i juz cant help having this feeling everi year during xmas. perhaps wad i am looking for is nt juz wad i am granted. i dunno wad i wan oso. im lost.

well. results gonna come out next tues. i hope santa noes that i haf been a nice boy this yr. nice boy gets rewarded wif gd gift i guess???