hm... i realise sumthin about mi... actualli i'm quite an introvert by nature... i alwaes put on a happy front and cheerful self in front of my frenz.. but actualli when i haf troubles or problems.. i tend to bottle up my feelings to myself.. and brood over it for a veri veri long time.. in the process.. i isolate myself.. i choose to be alone.. i noe its nt healthy... i think i nid to chg.. but sumtimes i feel difficult to express my feelings to others.. except for a few close ones.. well.. i haf been thinkin alot since the dispute in camp.. learn quite some points from it.. and at the same time reflect alot on myself.. i think everi incident which happens alwaes haf its own pros and cons.. it depends on urself whether u can infer ani learning points from it.. i think i realli mature quite a bit after this incident.. which is gd for mi.

aniwae, i realise my biggest weakness is my direct attitude and low self-confidence.. mani mani ppl haf been hurt by my words b4.. i am too direct in a sense that i dunno how to realli put words in a nice wae.. sumtimes i dun mean harm but juz my words make my speech humiliating.. when i crack jokes sumtimes i carried it too far and it turns into an insult to my frenz.. i'm sorrie to all hu suffer this from mi b4.. as for low-confidence level.. its juz another part of mi.. i dun deny i am a perfectionist.. in aspects of life.. i haf high expectations and demands.. therefore i usualli dun haf the confidence to fufil a task.. just like recentli.. i got selected in a captain's ball team after some trials in camp.. but i keep gifin excuses to make sum1 else take over my place.. i feel tat i am not up to it.. i'm afraid i will drag down the whole team.. another eg is the teaching award i got.. i haf doubts bout myself being realli able to educate the future generation althou i love to teach.. i dunnoe realli how to boost my confidence level.. mayb a few more successful stuffs i do may prove tat i am capable ???