Monday, July 23, 2007
bk out this morning.. but later haf to go back again le..
hm.. recently i had some arguments and misunderstanding wif one of my frenz.. result in alot of unhappiness.. put in alot of effort to patch back the frenship.. howver, the other party dun realli seem to care and worse still.. think he is irritated by some of my actions.. well.. nt veri sure how to deal wif the situation nw.. things seem to get worse everidae.. where conversations starts to get lesser.. atmosphere is nv the same as b4.. weird.. its nt easy to accept the fact that one close fren turn into an enemy? the feeling is jialat jialat wan..
read a bk bout depression recently.. from wad the bk saes.. i suspect i might haf mild depression.. i tend to feel sad, angry easily recently.. i become more tempermental den usual.. i tend to talk less oso.. i feel like i am a changed person.. no longer the xianyi hu alwes blabbered non-stop, haapy-go-lucky and luffs at everi single stupid thing.. i become more quiet.. think in depth for the smallest things.. i dunnoe wads wrong wif mi.. start imaginating things and a more pessimistic thinking to everithin.. i dun wan to be like this.. i wan to become like last time.. the happy xianyi.. i am trying to pull myself up nowadaes.. keep myself happie by occupyin myself wif work.. hope everithin goes well.
meanwhile, i finalli realise the fact that ur family are the ppl hu cares the most bout u.. all these while, i feel that i haf put too much emphasis on my frens and personal committment.. as a result, i spend too little time wif my family and neglected them.. especialli my mum.. she's alwaes happie when i come home everi fridae.. but i alwaes treat her coldly due to tiredness in camp or feeling down.. sumtimes i feel like telling her bout things that happen to mi.. like y am i sad or stuff.. but i feel weird to confide in my mum.. the feeling is juz veri diff compared to confiding in my frenz..i admit i alwaes put my frenz above everithin.. tat may b the reason i feel weird having serious talk wif my mum.. or mayb my frenz are more of my age and they can understand mi better. wadever it is.. i hope things will get better and i live happier.
hm.. recently i had some arguments and misunderstanding wif one of my frenz.. result in alot of unhappiness.. put in alot of effort to patch back the frenship.. howver, the other party dun realli seem to care and worse still.. think he is irritated by some of my actions.. well.. nt veri sure how to deal wif the situation nw.. things seem to get worse everidae.. where conversations starts to get lesser.. atmosphere is nv the same as b4.. weird.. its nt easy to accept the fact that one close fren turn into an enemy? the feeling is jialat jialat wan..
read a bk bout depression recently.. from wad the bk saes.. i suspect i might haf mild depression.. i tend to feel sad, angry easily recently.. i become more tempermental den usual.. i tend to talk less oso.. i feel like i am a changed person.. no longer the xianyi hu alwes blabbered non-stop, haapy-go-lucky and luffs at everi single stupid thing.. i become more quiet.. think in depth for the smallest things.. i dunnoe wads wrong wif mi.. start imaginating things and a more pessimistic thinking to everithin.. i dun wan to be like this.. i wan to become like last time.. the happy xianyi.. i am trying to pull myself up nowadaes.. keep myself happie by occupyin myself wif work.. hope everithin goes well.
meanwhile, i finalli realise the fact that ur family are the ppl hu cares the most bout u.. all these while, i feel that i haf put too much emphasis on my frens and personal committment.. as a result, i spend too little time wif my family and neglected them.. especialli my mum.. she's alwaes happie when i come home everi fridae.. but i alwaes treat her coldly due to tiredness in camp or feeling down.. sumtimes i feel like telling her bout things that happen to mi.. like y am i sad or stuff.. but i feel weird to confide in my mum.. the feeling is juz veri diff compared to confiding in my frenz..i admit i alwaes put my frenz above everithin.. tat may b the reason i feel weird having serious talk wif my mum.. or mayb my frenz are more of my age and they can understand mi better. wadever it is.. i hope things will get better and i live happier.
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